Perhaps/ The wonderwall 22 November, 2009

(credits to bittersweet1424)

Today, I finally gotten round to knowing the reason why I didn’t contact you when I was stranded in Heathrow. Strange to have myself answering my question, the question I asked myself then and there. A good 5 months ago.

Somehow, perhaps, deep down, I knew. That we won’t go far.
And I was right.

Perhaps, however, thinking I know what will come next makes me unadventurous . Or perhaps, I love myself too much to venture into possible pain.

Love for self can be seen as confidence, arrogance and what have you.. But I think it more importantly creates the wall.
The wall that protects the self, and prevents the other(s) from entering.

The wall may come down, eventually.. perhaps.

Perhaps when the other(s) proves to be worth the while.
Or perhaps, when the other(s) turn out to be the wonderwall of the self.

Pfft. 21 November, 2009

Experience without science is shallower,
science without experience is hollower.
–Trudgill

And I found my new-fave past time! Pissing my dog off by waking him up so that he can play play with me. I won’t deny that I could possibly be the most annoying person it has ever met.

On the side of me 18 November, 2009

I say that school’s a battlefield..cos I’m nowhere close to being a top student, and less-than-desirable grades never fail to make me feel like crap.

So when I woke up to my fave friend’s sms reading “Let’s have lunch?”, I jumped out of bed. Yup, I needed to get my mind off school and the exams, and my bad grades.

You, yes, you, showed me how I have much to be grateful about. School may not be going well, and I think I won’t want to do thesis anymore..but all that’s not going well is not everything that defines me, isn’t it?

I have to shamefully admit that a few nights ago, I was almost in tears, wondering if I should just stop the Honour’s prog and file for graduation.. but if I were to do that, I realise it will be a regret I will have to face for a long long time.

The grades may not be good in the end, but I won’t want to give up without putting on a good fight.

So thank you, my fave friend, for putting up with my rantings, for showing me the way back to where I belong before I lose focus, for reminding me that we all need a little patience.

I am not a good student, but I’m much more a student.

Garance Dore 18 November, 2009

Shoes are great ice-breakers for girls.
You don’t know each other, and then suddenly you’ve got something to talk about for hours and hours. I’d bet some of the greatest friendships were born from a pair of pumps.
– From garance dore

“What’s Left?” 18 November, 2009

“Idealism is the luxury of Power.”
–Smith, 2005:897

Some 1000 Awesome things 17 November, 2009

Let’s face it. It’s the time of the semester of which I feel guilty doing anything, except when spending time with my readings and notes. The week of horror. The need to constantly tell youself it’s ok to be stuck at home for the entire week. The need to reassure yourself that you have a brain that works. The need to stop panicking.

I know I will miss times like these when I look back in future, but now, I just wanna lie on the grass under the sky and watch the little puffy clouds float pass..

In fact, I wanna do anything except studying.. so I felt the need to look for happy things to make myself happy and smiley..(bad mood does not do good to natural radiance and glow)

Was looking through “1000 Awesome things” and found some random awesome things that make me happy too!

#733 Laughing so hard you make no sound at all

#731 An inbox of personal emails when you wake up in the morning
I especially love emails that make me laugh at my screen!

#706 The moment at a concert when the crowd figures out what song they’re playing

#704 Taking the price tag off in one clean peel
I’m extremely guilty of this.. cos I’m that anal..

#701 When you hit the point where you’re comfortable farting around each other
So far, no one.. except my dog.

#696 Actually pointing out a constellation in outer space
I’m clueless about stars and all..but I love getting lost under the blanket of stars, just admiring the beauty of the unknown.

#692 Eating the crusts of the sandwich first to save the middle part for last
I do this every single morning.. and when I apply the chunky peanut butter, I will put the chunks of peanuts in the middle. Mmmm.. save the best for the last..yummy.

#691 When you flip to a radio station just as a song you love is starting

#687 Turning off all the lights during a thunderstorm

#678 Sneaking cheaper candy into the movie theater

#670 When a stranger walks by and offers to take a picture of you and the person you’re with
I hate taking pictures, but there are always exceptions.

#660 Stomping dry crunchy leaves on the sidewalk

#651 When the phone rings and it’s somebody you were just thinking about
Which doesn’t happen cos I don’t pick up calls..ironically..

2631 17 November, 2009

I see a little hint of light, the little motivation I have been looking for.

5 weeks to Christmas, and I’m counting down…the smell, the sight, the touch, the taste and the sound of Christmas.

And probably because it almost marks the end of the year, when you can pat yourself on the shoulders and go phew.. This year has been a crazy year with lotsa excitement packed in the beginning, and then came the withdrawal symptoms from the fun, the little heart ache, the workload.

So yes, I’m looking forward to Christmas, a season of sugar, spice and everything nice…

Psst. I was looking throught this briefly, and I think you should too. –1000 Awesome things

Mind over body 16 November, 2009

For this week, I will be a true-believer of the Placebo effect.
I will be motivated. I will work. And I will thrive.

*whip whip* work it, Jaslin.

3.50am. Sunday morning. 15 November, 2009

I’m finding it hard to breathe. But I’ll try.
When I have more than school on my mind, it’s difficult.

I need a shoulder to cry on. A little some time ago.
I hope people are more than the mistakes they make.

And I still hope that one day, I’ll find someone who’ll teach me how to trust and love wholeheartedly again.

“Fathers be good to your daughters, daughters will love like you do..”–John Mayer

Reminiscing Italty 13 November, 2009

I’m suppose to be doing my work. But I got caught up with all the pictures I took in Italy.

The breath-taking beauty of the place can’t be justified through pictures.

The love they have for life, for food, for love.

La dolce vita.