My mum said… 27 June, 2007

My mum said i’ve a long way to go, more people to meet, and more things to do.

Now i know what made her so strong. I argues with her and all, but in the end, she’s one person i really look up to and treat as a role model.

Was on my way home and i was thinking about the “Truman’s show”… tell you a little secret-at times, i wonder if i am a character in such a show. Maybe if i am, it can explain why i’m leading quite a drama life. ok ok, i know i’m quite a drama-mama sometimes.

Heading to bangkok!

p.s. go have a listen to avril’s “when you’re gone”

夜之梦 27 June, 2007

A few nights ago, I dreamt that I was performing on stage.

Something which brings mixed feelings.

One day, I hope to sing “Save me from myself” on stage too.

What now 26 June, 2007

When I’m too free, I ask myself-am i happy with, wad I am, where I am and who I am.

As fickle-minded as a woman can be, I can say I’m rather contented with now. Maybe it was the great chicken soup that’s kicking in(yup, i can be contented quite easily).

Maybe I’m at a stage where i want to push my limits.

Sometimes, I feel contented only when I manage to find that pair of shoe that “wow” me. Other times, i feel pissed even many rounds of retail therapy.

Sometimes, I’m happy with a simple chat, concern, smile, gesture. And when I think back, they still do bring a smile. Other times, I wonder why do i even bother remember when others may not even bother remembering. Then again, forgetting may not mean it’s not important. To each his own, maybe?

Sometimes, I get irritated when I think I’ve been remaining stagnant for too long, no progress, and I’m wasting my time. Other times, I appreciate the fact that there is stability and that things are kept simple and sweet.

Sometimes, I embrace my curves and think I should be thankful for what I have. Other times, I hate them, thinking that means I’ve got loads of weight to lose before they disappear.

Sometimes, I think I’m trapped and I should be out there, doing someting different, living life. Other times, I think this is life, my life-full of ups and down, many wrongs and little rights. I’ll learn as I live.

Maybe a balance is always good. We always have to look from both sides, don’t we?(ok ok, I think I’m just excusing myself for being so fickle-minded, sometimes. or no, most of the time? but somtimes sounds better right?)

haha, that’s moi in total fickle mode, which doesn’t occur too regularly. Does it?

Save me from myself 25 June, 2007

It’s not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you’ve gotta be
Everything’s changin
But you’re the truth
I’m amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

My love is tainted by your touch
Cuz some guys have shown me aces
But you’ve got that royal flush
I know it’s crazy everyday
Well tomorrow may be shaky
But you never turn away

Don’t ask me why I’m cryin
Cuz when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smilin
You always save me from myself
from myself, myself
You’re gonna save me from myself

I know it’s hard, it’s hard
But you’ve broken all my walls
You’ve been my strength, so strong

And don’t ask me why I love you
It’s obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
a better woman to myself
to myself, myself
You’re gonna save me from myself

生日快乐 23 June, 2007

仿佛你就在我身边，等代一年又一年。。。

这个呢，是休止符。是我最喜欢的符号。它代表了静止，休息，呼吸。然后又再从新来过。其实每一个符号都有自己的意义， 当你真正了解它之后，再回头去看它，它就不只是一个符号了， 而是一种。。。情感。

Perth 22 June, 2007

King’s Park in the morning. We were trying to get a pic with 3 of us jumping..i was the only one off the gound in this one..it was hard to capture 3 of us in the air. haha, this one makes me look like a penguin, according to my younger sis..i thot i look really happy!

At King’s Park, at night. It was freaking cold!

With my sisters and my mum. Can you guess which shadow belongs to me?

Having fun taking pics with my younger sis. Yup, i do love parks, don’t they have some romantic element in them? Sitting on the grass, admiring the surrounding, enjoying the company-that would be simple and quite perfect.

Mondo Nougat factory

Yes, Sex is no subsitute for chocolate. It works both ways lah.

The famous Miss Maud’s desserts. hmm, ya, i love my desserts (i know i shouldn’t be eating but i’m a sucker for desserts). Ah yes, i love men who can cook. On the left is their mudpie, an on the left is their apple parcel. God, i love anything with apple..

Corica’s apple strudels. Man, i love their custard! Apple + custard + perfectly crispy crust= heavenly combi..we almost got a fine for parking at an “unauthorised” area, just for this apple strudel.

Their biscotti is great!

Fondue at Margaret River Chocolate factory at Swan Valley.

Next up, pics from Caversham Nature park.

They sleep 20 hours a day, for survival.

That’s a wombat. A very sleepy one. She falls asleep in 2 mins, during the meet the wombat session.

Pardon my mum’s finger which blocked the top part of the pic.

 ok, so i’m left with one trip to bangkok. god, i’m gonna miss taking the plane!

p.s. watched 生日快乐 onboard. God, it was so sad, i almost cried, many times.

there are feelings i want to express every day, but can only say them once a year.–生日快乐。

I can’t be complete. can you give me more? And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything. Nothing less cause I’ll give you everything.

Back 22 June, 2007

Back from Perth.

I think I’m quite tired.

You know, I’m no good. 14 June, 2007

Depressing entries-i know.

Maybe it has been hard to keep on changing my sleep cycle. Imagine sleeping and relaxing so much in Hokkaido. Back here, it’s like waking up at 4, jogging, working(not tt i hate work, but it’s draining).

I think i do lack discipline. I think i’ll suffer from servere withdrawal symptoms when i enjoy myself too much. Gees.

But i’m much much better, haha, PMS is over (gals would know wad i mean).

Heading down under, and then to Bangkok. =)

I cheated myself,
Like I knew I would,
I told you I was trouble,
You know that I’m no good.  

P.s. I’m addicted to “over it”. I’ve to listen to it when i wake up,when i jog, when i work, even before i sleep. It’s just like “irreplaceable”. It gives me that “girl power” feeling. It’s a “feel good” thing.

Wanting you to be wanitng me-that’s not the way to be.

Hurt at first, a little bit. But now, i’m so over it.

Music and Lyrics 13 June, 2007

Music of a song is like the physical and sexual attraction.

Lyrics of a song is like getting to know the person’s character.

Music and lyrics makes up the song, and that’s knowing the person.

Over it 13 June, 2007

No that ain’t no way to be. How i feel, read my lips. Moving on, it’s my time, you were never a friend of mine. Don’t call, don’t come by, and don’t ask me why-you never change. I’m so over it.

Don’t fancy the tune of this song as i think it hides the potential of her real good voice(listen to the live version below, before the back-up comes up, to get wad i mean), like the lyrics tho.

This the live version. However, take a listen and you’ll realise her backups are really really bad, too loud, for heaven sake.. The irony of backup singers. (youtube jojo’s AOL performance to see another example of bad backups.)

Yaya, i’m still pms-ing. Never been this bad for quite some time.

Ranked behind them, positioned after it.

4 in the morning 12 June, 2007

Walking thru the rows of bookshelves, doing my weekly visit to the library for a regular dosage of chick flicks-i realise i’m a real sucker for crap stories.

Boy meets gal. Sum shit would happen, but they still end up together.

My sister told me to stop watching “Sex and the city” after i couldn’t stop gushing about how Samantha’s man was the kinda man i want. I wanted a man..hmm..give you a scenerio–let’s say this guy is interested in me, and when i tell him that i’m going on a date with another guy, he would confidently say, “how could you date another guy besides me?”(of cos, not in a MCP manner–i know, i know, i ask for a lot).  She said it’ll “mislead” me, cos there’s no such man (ok, maybe there are such men out there, but wad are the chances of me meeting one, getting to know one, falling for one, just to have him fall for me too?).

I know, i must stop dreaming. My head tells me that i should wake up, but my heart insist on dreaming(maybe Disney’s happy endings had an effect on me?).

Anyway, it’s bedtime, maybe that’s why.

Off to dreamland!

Waking up to find another day.
The moon got lost again last night.
But now the sun has finally had its say,
I guess I feel alright.

But it hurts when I think,
When I let it sink in.
It’s all over me,
I’m lying here in the dark.

Mont Blanc 11 June, 2007

As i’m too free at this moment(ain’t working today), and i thot i would ask for a Mont Blanc for my birthday this year!

but i think many Singaporeans don’t really like the taste of it.

so i concluded, either have the company, or the cake!

ok, that was a not-so-funny joke.

It’s quite hard to get pics of Mont Blanc-s.

Anyone happen to know which place serves good Mont Blanc?

Maybe Mont Blanc would be my new chocolate.

The bomb will drop..and you better pray it’s not going to be on you. 11 June, 2007

I think i need a poorer memory, then maybe, i’ll be a happier girl.

And i’m learning, to display selective memory too.

Btw, i’m in a crabby PMS mood! Maybe it’s holiday-withdrawal symptoms.

Hokkaido 10 June, 2007

Flowers on the hill

Double Rainbow which was seen on 黑岳。It’s a little hard to see, but look close enough, you’ll be able to find the second rim.

Pretty sweets from Japan

Glorious cakes from all over Hokkaido!

Cute ice-cream from Ishiya  Chocholate factory.

Children at the Sonar Festival.

Fireworks in front of the hot spring hotel.

Fox

Toilet bowls that washes ur butt for you. you can choose the tempreture and pressure of water.

The mama mia Mont Blanc. My current fave dessert. Personally, i think this one is better than the one from Canele.

The famous Ramen alley

Japanese rice during breakfast

Me, sitting on the green field

Sakura

Tower in Sapporo

Here’re the few pics i selected out of the 550 i’ve taken!

Post Secret Sunday, Part 2 10 June, 2007

To all ladies out there, who deserves more deserving men.

p.s. i know, i’ve been putting up loads of entries today. but hey, i miss my blog!

CSThnkAU 10 June, 2007

“I thought you were going to love me and leave me”–Rescuing Rose.

Deep inside me, I have that fear too.

I guess we all do.

Post Secret Sunday 10 June, 2007

Maybe i don’t really know anymore.

Back 10 June, 2007

Back from Hokkaido. It was one of the best group tour holiday I had.

The food, the weather, the people, the culture, the (food and make-up) shopping.

The first time i saw a double raindow,

the first time i played with a fox,

the first time i wore the Japanese pyjamas to sleep every night,

the first time i tried the best Mont Blanc from a humble convience store,

the first time i ate cheese almost eveyday,

the first time i ate ice-cream and it immediately won me over,

the first time i didn’t really care about the calories when i put food in my mouth for the longest time,

the first time i played with dandillions,

the first time i enter the hot spring (naked, mind you, with all the other women, and imagine bathing in front of like 10+ people), and felt like i just put myself in a boiling wok, and btw, the hot spring was great!

the first time i hit the record of watching a movie 5 times over. Watched “Music and lyrics” for 5 times in a row, while i was on board,

the first time i thot Anna Sui’s perfume smelt nice so bought loads of stuff from Anna Sui(first i picked up the lipstick, then the perfume, then the eye gloss) at Narita (but of cos, i still love my Chanel, and i still dream of that chanel fall/winter 2004-2005 haute couture collection wedding gown. mind you! i don’t even dream of getting married, i just like that gown. Maybe i can be like Carrie from “sex and the city”, get married to myself. While she got “married” for shoes, i get “married” just to wear that gown.),

the first time i thot Hokkaido can be quite romantic when i was admiring the fireworks along the Pacific ocean in Kimono, and when i visited the Ortaru Village.

It was one great experience. Photos would be up, as soon as i’m not lazy!

Next up, Perth. Anyone with good recommendations in Perth, please tell me!

And then, it would be Bangkok!

P.s. God, my sis (always updating me about new food-hunts cos she has a foodie-fren) just told me that the Les Amis group just opened a new “dessert” restaurant called “Macaron”. Being a sucker for desserts, haha, i so wanna check it out soon. but have to find suckers for desserts, cos apparently, 1/2 or 2/3 of the dinner is sweet.

At the airport 3 June, 2007

It’s 7.38am now.

Leaving for Hokkaido soon. Would be back on the 9th, at about 5.05pm

to ass: the black vodka cost about 50 bucks. so i get the Jack Daniel’s.

un soir parfait 2 June, 2007

All the pictures did the talking, I guess.

The toufu Cheesecake, Mocha Tiramisu-All the yummylicious food and desserts!

Great food makes a great evening. Great food with even better company makes a perfect evening.

Sitting facing the river, the human traffic busily streaming past us. With the beautifully-created desserts in front, and pockets of people surrounding us, it was easy to just sit back and enjoy the small chats, the comfortable silence.

That’s wad i call a simple and perfect evening. Thank you. =)