Chocolate-coated rainbows and cotton candy skies.
Hi, I’m a drama queen. You? 30 July, 2007
Disappointment. Anticipation. Excitment. All jumbled up in me.
I won’t say that i’m the saddest person on earth, tho I ain’t very happy, all at the same time. But I was said to have the heartiest laughter and laugh like it’s the funniest thing on Earth.
Little wonder I’m called Drama Queen. I choose to show what i want–When I ain’t happy, I laugh to mask it. When I want to make others feel happy, I laugh at their joke/comments like I really love it.
I think I’m on my way to a postsecret’s postcard.
I’m praying for the strength I once had.
星期天，11。45分的情感 30 July, 2007
慢慢失忆– 所有和你的事情必须忘记。
爱的盆地， 深怕在一滴眼泪就会决堤。
我也不想被你肯定，在这时候说我有让你感动过。
慢慢心痛– 没人发现我和从前不同。
你的眼中， 看得出另一个人给的感动。
我也不要你心疼我，对我比从前温柔。
应该放晴的天气， 还下雨– 别这样下去。我难过，但说不出来。
一只逃避– 以为闭上眼睛就能忘记。我的记忆还不停播放着我们绕过的许多街头。红灯，闪烁停驻的街道。蓝天，绿叶的熟悉，不同面貌。
累积或多或少的伤，或真或假的慌。
不变，不动，不转的时间。杀那，瞬息，片刻，永远。用全心记住你的脸。虽然和你面对面，我却看不到自己的脸。此刻，你的世界似乎离我太远。
怎么也拉不到你的手。
来来回回千万遍，突然领悟…
6.29 27 July, 2007
There’s a girl, with a story to tell.
And she’s still thinking if it’s the right decision to make.
To be precise, it would be a painfully right decision to make.
Macaron (con’t) 26 July, 2007
We were the first customers to step into Macaron. Greeted by a unique smell, Shoe and I were certain this was going to be unique experience already. Singapore’s first stylish new dessert restuarant is a 32-seater, proper sit-down restuarant. The waiter who showed us in the restaurant cheekily said, “I usually don’t do this, but ladies, where do you prefer to sit?”
I chose the seat at the corner of the restuarant which had warm lighting, which extended a welcoming feeling. As we were comfortabily seated in our seats, we were transfixed by the selection in the menu. We settled for the 6 course dinner which consist of 1 appetizer, 1 entree, 1 dessert amuse, 1 dessert glass, 1 grand dessert and 1 petit four. For a 6 course dinner like that, it cost about $70-80 per person.
The great ambience in Macaron, which I personally found very romantic.
Bread served with Extra Virgin Olive oil, butter and sea salt.
Cocktail–Bangkok Blues
My Appetizer- King Salmon Tartare.
Has ikura, vanilla pineapple confit, tomato, citrus vinaigrette and petit salad.
Personally, I ain’t a great fan of salmon, but this dish was light, and went well with the salad with Sunflower seeds.
Shoe’s Appetizer- Pulpo
Has aioli, sauteed potato, parika “air” and extra virgin olive oil.
My Entree- Pan-fried ‘magret’ Duck breast
With chocolate orange jam, sauteed pear, and roasted hazelnuts.
I loved that combination of duck breast and chocolate orange jam. For those who know me well enough, I don’t eat fats, but for this dish, I loved the fats! Loook at the layer of fats! Sorry, this place ain;t for people who calorie-count. I’m guilty of that at times, but come on! Know when to enjoy.
Shoe’s Entree- Foie Gras
With apple compote, cassis soulis, broche square and baby spinach.
Oh, I loved this dish too!
After eating the Entrees, we were sure that we made the right choice to visit this place. Every bit of the food provides you with a pleasant surprise.
My Dessert Amuse- Flambe Banana
With milk chocolate yograt, lemon cloud(yes, lemon cloud! look at how i scooped it up!) and cirtus crumble.
This was when Shoe said I started heaving sighs of pleasure…
Shoe’s Dessert Amuse- Chocolate Sorbet
With blood orange jelly(something I never tried before), orange confit, and orange caramel.
My Dessert Glass- Rasberry Granite(which I must confess, the Geograpgy major in me made me very very intriged by it’s name)
With milk chocolate foam, home-made hazelnut praline, and hazelnut nougatine.
The rasberry granite was so interesting! and the chocolate foam was hidden with many many surprises too!
Shoe’s Desset Glass- Cream Cheese Sorbet
With peach cream, almond nougatine and apricot confit.
My Grand Dessert- One Two Tea
With rasberry espuma, milk chocolate tea parfait, chocolate tea cream and cocoa bean tuile.
Shoe’s Grand Dessert- Violette
With violet ice-cream, strawberry marmalade, strawberry paper, cassis couis ad violet meringue.
Look at the strawberry paper. It’s like paper, but tastes just like strawberry!
Our petit four.
I started with the Vanilla Pate de Fruit(middle), then the exotic caramel and dark chocolate(left) before my favorite truffle and hazelnut macaron(right).
Oh, and the waiters, when serving you, would give you an introduction of the food, which kinda made me feel like in lectures!
Our experience at Macaron was a great one. Now, I finally found a place to hold my wedding. For those who don’t know, my ideal wedding would consist of 10 courses of desserts only! Not for people who don’t know how to appreciate good desserts and the diabetic of cos!
Like I’ve said, Macaron is my new fave restuarant, especially after “ah-seah” at the raffles hotel stopped selling my favourite carrot cake.
I definately look forward to visiting Macaron again.
Hopefully, it wouldn’t be soon before long.
p.s.I’m one very happy girl now. I don’t know why, but I’ve never felt so carefree in such a long time. I’m determined to stay this way. =)
p.s.s. I love taking pics of food!
Girls’ Night out 26 July, 2007
Met Eva and Cindy for a girls’ night out at Clarke Quay. But we were kinda early and the clubs weren’t heated up, so we headed to a very beautiful Dessert Patisserie.
Strawberry Shortcake with unique crust.
Their house recommendation. A kinda milk chocolate cake. It didn’t blow me away, but it wasn’t bad. Maybe just not Fantastic.
Next up, The Clinic. Maybe we were there early, it was boring! A redeeming factor, they were playing “Candyman”!
So we left for MOS! They gave free goodie bags to the ladies. In it, there’s Lacoste Perfume sample, Anna Sui vouchers and some other stuff. Love the Anna Sui voucher!
Seriously, I ain’t a clubbing kinda girl. I think it’s boring-either getting strange guys who wanna dance with you, or, girls who are dead drunk. Wad’s new huh?
Macaron 25 July, 2007
I’m one satisfied girl.
Just went to Macaron yesterday evening.
Great service, oh-so-good desserts.
Actually, I’m doing injustice to the food by describing them.
Love the ambience.
It was, for me, one Orgasmic experience. With a capital “O”.
With sighs of pleasure, sights of lust…and flirty laughter.
And I’ve been said to have high maintence taste buds.
Pics to be up, soon.
And Macaron is my *new* fave restuarant in town now.
And I found a good place for my *******!
p.s.Pardon moi, this is just a draft.
Tell me where it hurts 23 July, 2007
Did they ever give you a reason to believe in something different?
If you’re looking for love, for what it’s worth-I have plenty of it lying around here somewhere.
If you are looking for disappointment, you can find it around any corner.
In the middle of the night, I hold on to you tight so both of us can feel protected.
I’ve been loved but I didn’t know how to feel it.
And I’ve been adored but I don’t know if I ever believed it.
I’ve been loved my whole life but I didn’t know how to take it.
So tell me where it hurts, to hell with everybody else.
All I care about is you and that’s the truth.
They don’t love me-I can tell.
But you do, so they can go to h*ll.
Rain drops falling on my head 23 July, 2007
Woke up to a morning with light drizzle.
With “Collide” being played thru my iPod, and the little rain drops fallin on me, I jogged through the wet path in the park. I felt happy. Relived.
Maybe I thought it all through.
And that made me a happy face on this gloomy Monday morning.
Come to think of it, I don’t mind rainy days. At least I’ve matching umbrellas to match my outfits. But sorry, they’re too small for two. =)
I’ll be a happy face.
Post Secret Sunday 22 July, 2007
I’ve to say that chocolates don’t make me happy anymore. In fact, food don’t give me the satisfaction anymore. It becomes a routine to eat. Maybe that would be good for my dieting plans.
I do need more discipline. Yes, I need more of it to stop myself from feeling this way. I’ve been thinking way too much and it’s bad. Not that I’m depressed. I guess I’m just perpetually sad. The gloomy weather ain’t making me feel any better.
Is it true that as we progress in life, we ask for more all the time?
I think I do need some time alone, to think-What I really want.
Geez. I sound old.
Are the stages of life really like this?
I look around me and sometimes envy those who don’[t seem to need to go through what I go through.
Yes, I know, some find my life rather interesting. But still, I do get tired sometimes yea?
Maybe I’m just in a hibernating mode.
Brace youself! It’s a new week ahead.
Got Macaron and the Clinic to look forward to.
Sunday Morning 22 July, 2007
Things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do,
Sunday morning rain is falling and I’m calling out to you.
Singing someday it’ll bring me back to you,
Find a way to bring myself back home to you.
update: I posted this up at 12.07 am. And when i woke up on Sunday morning, at about 7, it was really raining! How apt, isn’t it?
Don’t look back in anger 21 July, 2007
I’ve currently lost my sense of taste towards some food, such as meat. So i imagine how they actually tase them, and then give up after a while.
Imagine.
Imagining that you’re close to some people, but in fact, it doesn’t really seem that way.
Some only look for you when they’re in trouble.
Some only look for you when they need company.
Some only look for you with a unspoken motive.
We’re all not blind. Of course, may we all pretend that every thing is fine, smooth and good. Beware, when it somes to me, I’m really really sensitive when it comes to such things. Maybe that’s why some times the line that holds us together snaps. When I observe that the other party/ies is/are not putting in effort anymore, I walk out of the masquarade in a runway fashion, keeping my head up high. Some times, just for a moment. Other times, for ever.
Pretending to be good and fine all the time, doesn’t work, not with me.
As I’m getting old, I’m more particular about time. Never waste time on people who aren’t worth your time anymore. Then I thought about those dreadful days at PGP and the people who were willing to pick up the phone and ask, “Are you ok?”. Only two- Ilona and Kelly. People I’ll always be grateful to. So I’m only worth the time of two people? I can’t sniggering at myself. “How pathetic”, I hear my inner self say. Then I thought about the reason I love travelling. Not only because I love new things, but also, when I’ve to do things alone, it gives me a less-lonely feeling and it’s normal that I don’t have compay in a foreign land. No, no, no. I’m ain’t feeling sad and lonely, but it’s just worth thinking about.
I don’t really know why I’m always writing about the same old stuff. But if there’re people reding, then I’ll continue writing.
Keeping the friendly distance, drawing the line, drifting apart with style is what I would do. Don’t ask why. Some things are better left unsaid. That’s what self-reflection is for.
Pretending that my food is yummy, when I can’t even taste them is like pretendning every thing is fine, when it isn’t. I’ll get sick and tired. Then, I’ll stop eating, stop trying.
Just always remember-No matter what, Never ever ever, drop a bomb on me. I may look strong, but don’t go testing my limits.
Save me from myself.
Is talk, that cheap? 19 July, 2007
Recently, I got to thinking about relationships.
Pardon me for the random post of many questions, for I was in a stage of confusion at that time. Not that I’m feeling any better now. It’s strange isn’t it? To have a girl who seem intimidating, fierce and what-say-you, to have time where by she gets to think that she isn’t in control. It’s one big scary situation.
Seriously, I do think I’ve got problems drawing boundaries sometimes.
I wonder if keeping the friendly distance is always good? Look if we were to draw the line and keep the friendly distance all the time, would we still stand a chance to know someone at a deeper level? Wouldn’t we always be functioning as individuals?
When I give, I expect to receive-and maybe that is the problem with me.
I think I’ve yet to learn. Like I’ve said, I do believe that I’m very much in control when it comes to other aspects of life. But when it comes to a problem on relationships, I’m always at lost. Quite a irony, isn’t it? Especially when I always have people telling me about their problems.
Afterall, it’s easier to dish out advises when you’re not the one facing the problem.
Talk is cheap. Prove me wrong.
Maybe the day I can’t be bothered to give assurance anymore, can’t be bothered to bother anymore, I would officially be numb.
On the bright side(or brighter side), I’m going to Macaron! Company at last! I’m so excited that I’m even planning for my menu now! Loads of pics to be taken man!
It’s hard to get company these days, ain’t it? Like how I’m going to watch the Gwen Stefanie concert alone. Just tell me who goes to watch a concert alone? A music concert! Where everyone goes there to party and groove to the music! But well, not having company ain’t hindering me from pampering myself. Still, it’s strange. It feels like I’m some kinda old, strange, intimidating, menopausal spinster. Times like these I can really visualising myself that way. It’s like fast forwarding my live to see how I would be like in 20 years.
It looks as though, you’re letting go. If it’s really real, I don’t want to know. Memories-can be inviting, but altogether mighty fightening. With my head in my hand, I sit and cry. It’s all ending, we’ve got to stop pretending who we are. You and me-I can see us dying. Are we?
Listening to “Don’t speak” makes my heart ache, literally, with the choking feeling at my throat.
心不由衷 18 July, 2007
In life, is it always black and white? Is there no grey area?
In life, must we always be clear and draw boundaries?
What if I cross the boundary?
Am I still in control?
Would it be a triggering point to lose myself?
Is there no alternative to the ending?
Who’s speaking?
The heart or the mind?
Star on the sky 18 July, 2007
I was told that if i look at the sky long enough, I would be able to see more stars.
As I was walking home after my jog, I decided to give that a try.
I saw one, then two…then four!
Suddenly, the morning seemed really beautiful-the quiet and dark surrounding with a few shining stars for company.
Patience is a virture.
Birthday Celebrations Part 1 15 July, 2007
Before I start, My mum, sis and I went to Menotti for Italian food. The food was so-so. Prefered their molten choc cake(that’s not the name of the cake-didn’t really take note)
On the 9th, my family headed down Ka-sou for their popular pork ribs. But I have to say that there is no consistancy in their standard. Sometimes too dry, Sometimes too oily, when you’re lucky, it’s yummy.
My Mont Blanc cake from Rive Gauche. Didn’t think my faamily enjoyed this, guess they still prefer the good old choc cake. But I loved it-sublte and not too over-whelming. They’ve really BIG chestnuts! (Don’t think dirrty)
Special thanks to my elder sis who drove down Orchard to get it for me, and my younger sis who did 4 different renditions of the Birthday Song.
Next, Ass and I headed down to Suntec for San Zhong Liang Jian. They have good food there and I was impressed. Didn’t take the pics of the food cos i was busy eating! haha
The lights at Starbucks which took my breath away. Thy’re sexy, don’t you think so? Would love to have them in my bedroom in future. Imagine this with passionate red walls…
80, looking and smelling the roses! 80! com back! Sidetrack abit, 80 hasn’t been home for 3 days and we’re all worried.
Lastly, a painting on the wall of my bedroom. Only one would know the purpose of posting this pic up.
Had a quiet and subtle Birthday celebration, it didn’t matter that there was no cakes or songs. The company was good, and that was wad matters.
Bday Celebrations Part 2 15 July, 2007
In the previous post, I mentioned going to Cafe Iguana So here are some pics!
The Yummilicious Taco Salad!
The spontaneous girls who sang me my Birthday song
The 2 cakes they bought.
Our first try-I’m not good at taking pics with 3 people in it. We all agreed that our smiles are the most genuine in the first pic.
Our second! There’s a 3rd one, but the smile were kinda not-so-nice.
Next up, Eva, Cindy and I headed down Central yesterday! First, we had Waraku!
I had Beautiful Lady-a Sake cocktail. Love it.
Eel Fried rice. It did not live up to my expectations, at all. It tasted like Kikkoman fried rice.
Shoes! We were shopping and I fell in love with this pair of heels! When I was about to pay, the gals had already paid for them. They said this pair screams my name! I’m waering it to the outing to the Clinic with the gals!
Aftr which, we went to Sun with Moon to have their Yam Mont Blanc! A pity my phone’s batt died on me, and I didn’t bring my cam out! Damn, I promise the next time I go, I’ll take pics of that beautiful creation!
