Was at NUH yesterday evening.
Waited for 3 hours.
It wasn’t the blood I saw, or the moans I heard that made me anxious.
It was whether he was going to be alright.
He will be.
Behind the Steering wheel 29 October, 2007
I’m feeling very unsettled now.
All because I didn’t do 4 U turns beautifully.
It was all good at Ubi.
Somehow, I seem to have a fear doing it at Hougang.
Damn, and I ain’t having driving lessons for one month.
It’s gonna get pretty rusty. So he my instructor said it was ok, since I’m gonna stop for a month and is bound to forget some stuff.
Thinking back, I realised I held on to the steering wheel for too long. After doing the double turn, I should have let go, which I didn’t.
I held on too tight. And my instructor looked at me and said, “You should have release the wheel earlier.”
Yes, I almost forgot. Now, I remember.
My instructor and I had a good talk in the car.
Interestingly, he told me what kind of man I should beware of.
It came at the right time.
More than words 29 October, 2007
Words so simple, yet from deep within the heart,
those words of raw emotions filled with angst, pain and love.
SatC 29 October, 2007
“If you start helping me, being there for me, no good can come out of it.
Because what happens if you’re not around one day? You maybe out of town, busy, or we can just fall out.
That happens.
Then what is going to happen to me? Learn to be independent again?
That ain’t easy, and I hate doing that.”
ROarr 29 October, 2007
Was doing my late night jog, while I was thinking about “Objection”.
I have a Crazy idea–I think I should tango at the beginning of the song.
So who knows how to tango? ok, I can’t stop laughing to myself!
Damn, I missed the OktoberFest. Should have thought about it when I was walking along Clarke Quay that night when I saw the tent!
I know it’s the truth, but don’t say it. Shh. I ain’t interested.
Scents and Sensibilities 28 October, 2007
Yup, Scents and sensibilites. Personally, I feel that the different scents I use gives me a different kind of confidence. But maybe it ain’t that easy to tell them apart if you’re not a perfume wearer.
Coco Mademoiselle, Chanel.
Mademoiselle is a light, sensual fragrance, seductive and distinctively modern. A subtle blend that emphasises the fierce independence of a sexy, captivating woman. The base notes of this fragrance brings out the causual, sexy charm with a hint of masculinity. Ben using it for about 2 years, after my elder sis bought it from Paris for me for my 18th Birthday. A good scent to use when I wanna feel more “lady” than “girly”, plus, I love it that it has a hint of masculinity–I always think it’s sexy when a woman dares carry of a man’s scent. Hence, I wear it almost on a daily basis, especially when I need a boost of confidence that day.
Dolly Girl Bonjour L’Amour, Anna Sui
Dolly Girl is a tale of innocence and flirtation. This scent brings you to the Dolly Girl’s Parisian world of romance, haute corture, allure with chic elegance with fruity fragrance. Dolly Girl celebrates a lady’s contridiction of cute and sexy with a scetn that is provocative, flirtatious, precocious and just a bit naughty
Was introduced to this frangrace when I was in Hokkaido, and yes, I feel in love with is cos it smeels sweet, yet it isn’t overly sweet, plus, it has a refreshing hint to it. I usually wear it when I’m in skirts, shopping, or a girls’ night out.
Treson, Lancome
This scent remains to be one of my fave because it brings me back to my childhood days. Whenever I smell this, I remember those days I sit on my mum’s bed, while looking at her prepare herself for work, in the morning at 8. It’s like some kinda of ritual for her to spray this on herself before leaving home.
Miracle, Lancome
This is one of the fragrance I use when I need to put on perfume (yup, I feel uncomfy leaving the house without a fragrance on me, maybe it’s in our genes, cos my mum and sisters have the same habit too!) but don’t feel like using those I usually use. It has a modern, sophisticated feel to it. However, the thing about this scent that does not go very well with me is that it is peppered with ginger, and that kinda makes me feel damn fierce and agitated! haha!
How Friday evenings should be like 26 October, 2007
My friend passed me one of these postcards, and told me to write my secret on it…
So the first thing which came to my mind was “wow! it’s like Post Secrets! Uber cool!”
I was thinkg about what I have to write, and then, I saw “Bedside Secrets”.. Hmm, taking a closer look at it, I realised it’s for people who are “Dying to tell someone your bedside secrets, to share your wildest fantasies” (according to the postcard).
I looked so amused that my friend asked, “You want more? I’ve got a lot here”
haha, then I thought, “Hmm, do I look like I’ve so many bedroom fantasies?”
And for those who are wondering if I have written any secret fantasies yet, the answer is no…
It’s suppose to be a secret..somehow, I feel someone may read and recognise my handwriting lah! It’s going to placed at the walkway from the Arts to the Central Library!
But maybe maybe, I might just write one down.
Went to Central to shop! Wanted to but a pain of killer, to-die-for heels, but I figured it would not be too practical..and maybe I should have gotten it from Guess then..Yup, I’m sucker for Guess..oh, Raoul has good designs for clothes too! and it’s a Singapore brand managed by FJ Benjamin! Speaking of fashion, I was looking at schools which provides degree for Fashion design..cos I may wanna do another degree after this NUS one. In Singapore, it seems like only La Salle provides them? So maybe overseas would be good. Hmm, networking is very important. Seems like I need to do some serious planning.
My sis bought this yummy little donuts, and hell yes, they taste quite good.
And we were resting while we saw a model in the middle of a table full of chocs! Apparently, they are having some choc fashion show tomorrow!
The model
Close up of the chocs
If you’re thinking that since they’re free, they ain’t nice, you’re really wrong.
Then we went to Azabu Sabo for desserts! Cos my sis said they’ve got good Green tea ice-cream.
Great ambience, and good service(much much better than the one at Marina Sq), I was impressed!
Green tea ice-cream with red bean paste and gluntinous rice balls
Azuki (Red bean) Milk shake
I’ve to say the milk shake could have been more red-beanful for a red bean lover like me!
Then we went to Cafe Iguna for Shi Yun’s birthday, along with my sis, Sharon and Jeremy!
It was goooooood company–I really enjoyed myself.
This is how Friday evenings should be like. I’m smiling, from deep withing, with contentment.
Who wouldn’t be? With good food, company and shopping.
Sociology 26 October, 2007
Was having tutorials. I guess I never mentioned I like going for sociology tutorials though it’s at 8 in the mornings (thus, making me go thru a 4 hrs break), but it’s really fun.
Today, we got to doing Family and Gender in the Singapore Society, so we were split into groups and each given a role to play, to convince the others why we deserve to adopt a child.
Interestingly, the tutor assigned me a role of a woman, married to a man, staying with my/his elderly parents. haha, trust me, that was the most boring and orthodox family profile given. We had others like blended family, cohabiting straight couples, gay couples, lesbian couples, single-parent family and single woman.
The interesting part came when we were giving reasons why we wanted to adopt a child, one guy(who was suppose to be married with no kids) said, “We want to adopt cos we’re childless, we’re childless cos we don’t have the right techniques”
There was silence for a while, and then we all started laughing really hard!
He went on to say, “I think we need time to master the right techniques..” My tutor responded by saying, “Maybe by the time you get the right technique, you tool isn’t woking anymore!”
When it came to us, my “husband” said, “We’re childless cos we’re both infertile, both–not just one of us. And we’ve got the right techniques..so I can teach you next time!”
It’s super hilarious–one of the most entertaining morning tutorials, I mean, we don’t talk about “tools”and “techniques” normally and slam each other’s profiled family for being “too normal” or “too abnormal”. For your info, morning tutorials are usually quite dreadful..Erk!
Got to talk about the recent debates about 377A, and I guess, I’m quite enlightened somehow.
Aterall, it’s difficult to strike a balance between economic logic and the social values. Between the form and values of family in this society, there’s bound to be tension and conflict arising from the inter-relationship of the two.
And even as I realise Sociology ain’t really my cup of tea, plus i’m more trained to look at the world from a geographical perspective, I have to say this module is truly an eye-opener.
Psst. Wow, exams are in a month’s time! haha, time to make plans for the holidays!
— 25 October, 2007
Removed my gold heels, comfortably sitting in the library, I was doing some blog-surf as I was plugging in to webcast (yes, they’re quite boring, esp when I’ve to sit through 4 hours of it).
Saw this, and my heart dropped (ok, that did not really happen). I mean, who the hell would pierce her heels into the pretty cupcake?
I’m in the mood to bake–and I think I would soon cos the busy period is over. Now, I guess I’ll just be gearing up for the exams.
Jammed yesterday night, and we kinda confirm the songs for the Holland V gig. Would be doing “Big girls don’t cry” and “Objection (tango)”.
Ok, gotta rush for Cities lecture.
For all 23 October, 2007
For allowing me to cry when I have my fustations to vent,
For giving me the strength to pull through what I thought I could never,
For trusting me to make the right major decisions,
For standing by me when I’m in doubt,
For comforting me when I make the wrong decisions,
For allowing me never to look back and regret,
For pushing me to my maximum potential,
For letting me know I’ll never be lonely,
For allowing me to feel lonely and depressed,
Thank you–just keep on doing it, keep the faith, spread the love.
Animals and Society Part two 23 October, 2007
Had Nature and Society lecture again.
Yes, he showed us the rest of the video. For those who are interested in the video, or what drives Jaslin into a state of trauma, you can go youtube it, it’s called “Earthlings”.
Actually, today’s video was less gruesome–but still it hit quite hard onto me. Imagine seeing a skinned animal still fighting for it’s breath, seeing the usually ferocious tiger being whipped and the poor elephant being shot down..
Maybe it’s due to the fact that I’ve got pets at home and I know they feel, they think and they know what is going on, for those who don’t believe me-maybe it’s time you try spare a day or two observing them, maybe you’ll be surprise they’re observing you too.
And back to the point that it was less gruesome–yea, it was, nevertheless, it drove me very close to tears. I think it was the look that the animals had when they were being tortured, it was like as if it was calling out for help, fighting to breathe, hoping to escape.
Brings me to thinking-animals ain’t the only ones suffering, there are many of us, human who are treated the same way too..
Oh, allow me to digress.We were watching the video, the narrator was describing the different ways which animals are killed before they were skinned for their fur. And then the narrator said, “Anal Electrocution”, the guy behind started laughing. So I turned back to look at him.
For a guy who is 22, I simply can’t put a finger to what was so funny about ”anal electrocution”. We don’t just laugh because there’s “anal” right? There is a time for everythings and obviously, the guy needs a lot more to teach him that, luckily, for many of us, I think we already know the fundamentals of that. Looks like no matter how educated you are, as long as you fail to feel for another, it does say alot. I was utterly disgusted..hoping the rest around me felt disugusted with his juvenile behaviour too.
Yes, No judgements. 23 October, 2007
I was looking through my blog entries and saw the post secret sunday’s. Somehow, I’ve this fear that someone may read this and try to think I’m conveying a message–when I’m not.
The thing is, I’m just romantic, in general. Yes, in general. Words and phrases sprout out sometimes, as cetain emotions strike me, but that doesn’t mean that they are the words I’m trying to say to a particular someone, they are the words I thought it would be good to post and trigger a thought or two when I read my archives and when others read my blog.
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I’m shagggggggggggggggged!
Give me the strength to survive tomorrow, ok, thursdday would be better.
Band pic 21 October, 2007
Here’s out full band(s)’ pic!
It looks like a class picture with the motto and goals behind, plus the lady the left is the teacher who invited us to perform–kinda cute!
How could an angel break my heart–She says, He says 20 October, 2007
I heard he sang a lullaby-I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die because that lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss,he gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe because his kiss belonged to me
I heard here face was white as rain. Your face is white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in May. Soft as rose
He keeps her picture in a frame. I keep your picture
And when he sleeps he calls her name. I only call out your name
I wonder if she makes him smile. She doesn’t make me smile
The way he used to smile at me. I only smile at you
I hope she doesn’t make him laugh. She doesn’t make me laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me. My laugh belongs to you
How could an angel break my heart. You’re my heart
Why didn’t he catch my falling star. I’ll catch your star
I wish I didn’t wish so hard. Don’t wish so hard
Maybe I wish our love apart. Love falls apart
How could an angel break my heart? Your tender heart
Objection 20 October, 2007
Was looking through some Objection video on youtube and thought I should share a good one with you guys. Plus, it’s a darn good song-full of attitude.
I love you for free and I’m not your mother but you don’t even bother.
This is pathetic, is sardonic, is sadistic, is psychotic. Tango’s not for three, was never meant to be.
So no way, I’ve got to get away.
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Was in the car and …
Me(to both my sis): wow, just now, I was walking and adjusting my earphone, then when I looked up, this super hot ang moh smiled and nodded at me!
Elder sis: you got 电 him not?
me: ah?
Elder sis: Next time, you must look at him back for a short moment, then look down. Like the geisha..
younger sis: HUH? what the …
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Was havin a lect on Retail Geog..
Lecturer: Now, you all go to Vivo, Taka to shop. In the past, we went to Gay world.
And then someone in class made some kinda drama ecxclaimation, really loudly. Instinctively, we all turned to looked at him and lauhed.
Lecturer: See, last time I say Gay world, everyone knows it’s happy world. Now, I say Gay, youall think of other stuff..
It was really funny. But thinking about it again, I realise, yea, they are people who would really give big reactions to the concept of gays. I read quite a few blogs talking about penal code 377A, gay rights, gay pride.
Indeed, it may seem like as if society decriminates against them. But then again, I think that it is just another form of discrimnination in the society.
Think about it, the fat gets discriminated against, the handicapped, the poor, many many more and the gays?
I think as long as you’re not following the “societal norm”, then you” be discriminated against, isn’t it?
And yes, it is not right to discriminate, but maybe we have to sit down, think hard about why? Why do people see you in such light? Is it just the other’s misjudgements? Or do you have you made some misjudgements about yourself too?
It’s one complex issue.
Maybe it’s good to rememeber–We don’t have to love them, we just have to respect them.
Yet, another brainless entry 20 October, 2007
Back. And I shouldn’t be here–should be sleeping actually cos I woke up at 5 and it’s already 12.23.
It’s been one looooooooooong day.
Went to Northbrooks for the gig today, it was good, minus the technical glitches(I couldn’t hear myself and it was soooooooo soft!). Taking a school bus was like going for a band excursion.
So next up, Holland V–kinda confirmed that I’ll be doing “Objection”, and tt may be the only song.
Then I went shopping! Like what Dr. Pow said in Cities lecture when talking about Retail geography in Singapore, “Shopping is not just buying the physical stuff, it’s an experience!” Allow me to sidetrack..there was this quote which wrote, “If I let go of her hand, she would go shopping”
Indeed. But nothing caught my eye, except, an Elmo diary from Japan which starts on Oct 2007-March 2009 (isn’t tt interesting?), costing me a whopping 20 bucks and a rubber keyboard for my sis.
After which, got to Marina bay for BBQ and steamboat. Long time since I’ve been there. Saw a lot–a fight, a boy with bad burns and a fire.
Next up, Maxwell for desserts! Had Peanut Ice Kachang and they were quite yummy. Passed by Scarlet Hotel too–would wanna drop by there some day. It is quite a seductive place. Imagine having a lobby called “Lobby Desire”. haha! Perfect place for some rendezvous!
Alright, another brainless entry–I know.
God, I have to apologise for the lack of quality entries. Been pretty busy. Havent had time to even eat Macarons and watch “Lust Caution”.
Open letter: Open heart 18 October, 2007
Dear —–,
If I open my heart to you, I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do and be there for me in the end.
Yes, it has to be this way-it is the only way.
For it’s illegal to deceive an open heart.
L, Jas
Out of reach 18 October, 2007
Was having a daily dose of Sharon’s blog, and I got reminded of “Out of reach” from the “Bridget Jone’s Diary”.
Great song.
Here’s the lyrics. Remember, no judgements.
Knew the signs wasn’t right.
I was stupid for a while.
Swept away by you.
And now I feel like a fool.
So confused, my heart’s bruised.
Was I ever loved by you?
Catch myself from despair.
I could drown if I stay here.
Keeping busy everyday I know I will be OK.
But I was so confused,
My heart’s bruised-was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far-I never had your heart.
Out of reach, couldn’t see.
We were never meant to be.
