Compromis-ing 29 November, 2007

When does the art of compromise becomes compromising?

I was talking over the phone yesterday and I said, “I think I won’t mind forgoing some unimportant expectations, but it’s a slippery slope–before you know it, you may getting what you don’t want.”

It’s normal for all of us to lower our expectations, when we meet some one real special, who is willing to go the extra mile for us, and whom we love and loves us in return.

But many a times, people slip from not mastering the art of compromise, that leads them to be in a compromising situation.

Psst. Watch “Hero” today. It’s witty, it’s funny. And god, Lee Byung Hun (i don’t know if it’s correct) is hot. Actually I watched the movie because of him, but damn, he appeared for like 30 secs? I like men with distinct jawlines–I’ve a super softspot for men like him..with charisma oozing out. Yummilious! I say!

Wild Horses 27 November, 2007

I know I dreamed you a sin and a lie.
I have my freedom but I don’t have much time.
Faith has been broken, tears must be cried.
Let’s do some living after we die.

Wild horses couldn’t drag me away.
Wild horses, we’ll ride them some day.

I don’t want a ladies’ man. I don’t need a ladies’ man.

Geeeeez. 27 November, 2007

2 papers down. 3 more to go.

Was waiting at Shears hall for the second paper to start, then, I realise, I lost my matriculation card! (We need that, or our ic to take the exams.)

Thank god the Dean’s office emailed me–It’s with them! Apparently I left it at Eusoff hall. I never expected myself to be so blur man.

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Satrio and Zein has been sharing music created by them. And I’m impressed! (would put it up after the exams).

Haha, Ok. I think it’s high time I do something more than just singing. I wanna learn the guitar..Yes, I’ll sacrifice my nails.

Boo. 27 November, 2007

Boo. I’m having pre-exam blues.

Boo. I dreamt I was late for the exams cos no one wanted to drive me to school.

Boo. I’m having fears of not being able to answer the questions. (I’m freaking scared of the Physical component.)

Boo. I’ve 2 Geog papers tomorrow.

Boo. I’m spending 12 hours in school tomorrow.

Boo. I’m gonna get 4 hours of sleep.

Boo. My hp is not working.

Darn. Damn. Doom.

A child at heart/ A simple, little getaway 25 November, 2007

Saw the pictures on the screen saver page and it tickled me…

My elder sis trying to strangle me…with me looking still quite happy!

My younger sis and me

I have no freaking idea why I had the flag in front of my face…haha!

I’m on the left..standing real straight with just my undies, looking like an apple…oh god, why oh why? And look at my cheeks! They look like Fuji apples! And they still do..it runs in the family lah.

Me on the left, again, my cousin, my elder sis and younger sis. FYI, my younger sis and cousin were born on the same year, month and day! Yea, I love my pacifiers..I’ve one on my hand and another in my mouth..haha, little wonder I can still remember my mum telling me I’ll have ugly mouth if I still don’t give up my pacifier..

 Shoe’s mum called me this afternoon. And she told me about going to a small Indonesian town to help hold a party for the kids there!

So, if all goes well, I’ll be spending 3 short days there. What excites me more is greeting my New Year away from the urban jungle. (A pity we are not able to head to Myanmar for voluntary work this year). Psst, I can’t wait for the new year to arrive..haha, I’m quite a kid at heart eh?

I spent my Birthday in Korea, would be spending New year in Indonesia.

I’m looking forward to spending Christmas in London (think “Love Actually”..). Hope that would be soon before long…cos I’ve to be earning $$$ first. (of a substantial amount, I mean)

Embrace my fragility and tell me softly that I’m Safe in a Crazy world. Don’t go away–you’re my love supply. (Jumbled some songs’ lyrics which is playing thru my playlist as I was churning this entry out)

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IR 25 November, 2007

In my cities module, “IR” stands for “Integrated Resort. And then we’ll go on to talk about whether it is a sing of polarisation? Are we maginalizing people? Or are we just gearing ourselves to embrace the really wealthy (not just rich), letting them have a space to call their space.

In my Climatology module, “IR” stands for Infrared Radiation. Which contributes to heat radiation and comes in 2 forms-longwave and shortwave.

Geez. Yes, they’re both Geography modules.

The relationship between Nature and Society (haha, that’s the other Geog mod I’m doing this sem!)

Kenangan Terindah 24 November, 2007

Have a listen. This song gave me goosebumps (in a good way) when I first heard it, and sometimes, it still does.

Ideas and ideals 23 November, 2007

I don’t how my parents brought me up, but I seem to have this strong belief of how love, or romance should be. (don’t ask me why I’m writing this now, I can’t concentrate today..all the damn phsics equations. I was more attracted to those Lindt chocs at Cold Storage, minus the hideous X’mas songs they play)

And that’s why when I see couples “in love”, without the spark after a while or get just sick of each other, I get puzzled. I mean, don’t get me wrong, of course, there are people who say “oh! that’s when they reach the stable stage”. Hmm, “Stable stage”, or is it “Stale stage”?

I always visualise romance in a few stages, which just gets better. The smile when you wake up in the morning, thinking to yourself “why am I smiling?”

I mean, it’s romance! It’s the breath-taking kisses, the breakfast in bed, the srcoll down the river, the strawberries dipped in chocs, the sexy pillow fight!.. Ok, I can go on and on but I should stop. Something along the line of good old-fashion romance…

Some may ask, then marriage? Well, marriage ain’t all about love, it’s about responsibility too. One level up the notch man.

Maybe I’m too idealistic. Yes, it must be.

But then again, maybe, maybe, maybe there is a possibilty.. Maybe it boils down to the people themselves. How willing you are to keep the romantic spark alive? How much you’re willing to go the distance? And of cos, how romatic the person is, innately, that is.

You can sit down by the beach, looking at the view from the sea, extending to the horizon, but if one sees only the water and light, while the other sees the intensity of the sun’s ray, the freshness of the breeze..well then there you have, there you see.

Sometimes, it’s how you make the best out of a situation. Even when facing with a rough patch, how willing are you to make it work out? It still boils down to “how much I want it”?

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Geez, and I lied again. Because honesty is not the best policy, not when a lie is better than “I’m not interested”.

psst. this entry seems incomplete, but I’m too restless to continue.

Up dates? 23 November, 2007

I always feel quite at lost after the exams, wondering how I should spend my time constructively. Geez, what a thought huh, when my exams have not even started. Haha, pardon this sadistic thought of mine, but I think exams are quite fun. At least I get to see people I haven’t seen for a week or two. Hmm, speaking of which, not that I’ve got many many more years of exams to take, which is quite saddening.

I mean, what best defines a student?

Digressing a little, I’ve been to Island creamery twice in 4 days. They serve quite yummilious ice cream. Trust me. Had the Nutella one last Sunday and their Blackforest today, with chunks of cherries in them. Wow. And their mudpie is good too. Plus it’s quite cheap, little wonder it’s always so crowded, usually with young people. Shall try their Apple Pie next time. Yes, I’m a sucker when it comes to apple pies, apple crumbles apple pie cupcakes, apple sauce, anything that have got apple… They make me feel goooooooooood.

And yes, we’ll be having a party, or let’s say a little get-together on X’mas eve! Pot luck! And of cos, it will have a theme, as usual. Shall think about it a bit later.

Geez, no holiday plans yet. Maybe I’ll follow my dad to Jakarta for his biz trip. Then I won’t have to pay for my sinful indulgence! hopefully…

And then I’ll bake more(yes for those I’ve promised I’ll bake, I’ll make good of my words), go to the zoo(I can’t wait!), write X’mas cards.. hmm..tt’s all for now.

These days, I’m getting a bit strange–smiling to myself, for no apparent reason, or so I think.

Yes, we always need to have something to look forward to. No?

Nothing attracts me more than Old-fashion romance and Old-school love. No?

Psst. It’s hard to say what “old-fashion romance” and “old-school love” is, but it just keeps ringing in my head.

我要快乐。

Post secrets wed 21 November, 2007

Shh..

I’ve thought about the possibility of the first but decided I wil never compromise for anything less than what I desire,

been worried about the second but decided that life now is quite exciting already 

and always remind myself about the third.

Speaking of which, I had a dream of myself, with my throat slit, blood flowing out. And myself smiling, while grasping for air. Ooh, How sadistic.

Cramming 20 November, 2007

Just woke up, feeling damn hungry. I cram best at night, it feels like it’s a race against time, to read more before the sun rises. But now I’m tired.

So I’m heading to the library to cram, in case I fall in to temptation when I see my bed.

What kinda entry is this? I know, it’s far too random. But you should know, random entries always pops out during exams period.

Yes, I’m spontaneous, so you’ve to be spontaneous too.

Band 19 November, 2007

Yeah, I should be cramming, but damn… I’m here!

Haven’t introduced my band before, so here it goes!

Here’s a candid pic taken by Kassim. It seems that we were all unprepared except for Benjamin. Plus I know my sitting position looks like I’m ready to meditate in heels.

From left, is bassist–Zein, from Bangladesh doing Business, drummer–Benjamin doing Chemical Engineering, vocalist and guitarist–Satrio from Indonesia doing Architectual (he looks like he’s writing some important report, but actually, he’s writing his lyrics down, memorising them), vocalist–Ross doing Life Sciences, also from Indonesia, me, and guitarist–Samuel doing Mathematics, and he has uber cool guitars (he’s reading my readings cos he had nothing to do, he reads quite fast so I jokingly told him he could summarise my readings for me.)

Introducing Kassin(in brown), our band leader doing Engineering. Oh he played a solo on set yesterday night and it was Wow!

We are people who’s creatively-challenged when it comes to posing for pics..haha. Maybe except for Kassim and Sam, who’s holding the box of cookies! Imagine how difficult it was for me to take the ten pics continously in 50 secs! (It has become some kinda routine that we do that somehow) We have another bassist, Fidaus who isn’t in the pics.

Some times, it’s unfortunate that we’re faced with technical glitches which pops out last min because it simply overshadows our weeks, or months of hardwork. Nevertheless, it’s comforting to remember that it’s not always the final performance that we put up that is important. It’s the hardwork, the effort, the fun, and the laughter that makes jamming together a fulfiling experience.

It has been a fantabulous semester jamming with these great guys.

who? why? how? what? 19 November, 2007

When it happens more than once, twice, or rather, thrice…

Is it too much of a coincidence?

Am I reading too much into it?

Testing.1.2.3. 18 November, 2007

Geez. It’s over-no more gigs this sem. I think it was alright, the sound system was bad. Which was strange, cos it was good, real good during the soundcheck. And it was such a letdown during the real thing.

Minus the bad sound system, I’m happy. And it didn’t rain. Thank god.

Thanks to Shi Yun, Wenqi and Yian Sin who came all the way down from the east. Especially Shiyun who is in the midst of exams, and her beautiful 黑牡丹 (am i right?). Thanks gals, I really really really appreciate your pressence.

And my family! haha, my cousins, and sisters(who brought the cute hand along) for those flowers and for driving us around.

Yes, speaking of flowers, I’ll post up the pics soon, when I have the time (it’s now time for hard-core cramming).

I want to write more, but I’ve got no more words to do my feelings justice. So I’m going to bed.

t.im.e. 17 November, 2007

I was blog surfing, and I came across one very interesting line.

“People say time heals, I say time erodes”, was what he wrote.

I couln’t help but smile as I read it again and again in my mind.

Yes, he is right. Time doesn’t heal.

It slowly removes the negative layer by layer, with other forces at work. Be it the sun or rain.

Bake. Cookies. Hands. 17 November, 2007

Quite a few pics coming up!

My younger sis bought this and I fell in love with it. So I asked her to wear it to support me tomorrow. She ask me to dream on. It’s cute right? So cute I couln’t resist, wore it, took a pic of it and posted it on my blog.

And this is Kittie. Gay name for a male cat..I know. And he’s quite strange, he likes my nail colours…which my baby nephew is scared of. Just last week, I showed him my nails, he took them, studied them and realised it kinda different from those around him, so he started to cry!  Geez, I scare babies.

Got down to baking for the band!

Cookie Dough

Freshly out of the oven. Rows and rows of it. I over-baked! Baked over 150 of them when I only needed about 80….

A rainbow and star to end this semester nicely!

Placed the cookies into the noodle boxes! I love those noodle boxes! They look cute right? Yea, I’ve got horrible handwriting…

Alright! For those who’s coming down to Holland village tomorrow, do bring an unbrella, in case it rains! =)

And for those who ain’t coming down, lets pray it won’t rain! But why ain’t you coming down? huh? Huh? HUH?

Mmmm… 17 November, 2007

We had Mexican for dinner.

My fave Apple pie, Mudpie, Opera and Choc Moose for desserts. I loved the Opera. mmm..

Then the street Magic show.

I’m satisfied. Maybe more than satisfied.

I think I was on sugar high. So high that I laughed so much. So much that my cheeks hurt.

Pump it. Clench the fist.

Bar or drop? 14 November, 2007

Drop or Bar cookies?

Ok, back to readings.

Thank god for the music 13 November, 2007

I often seek solace in music. Very often, I look through my playlist, and put some songs in my mental blacklist. A mental note to myself that I shouldn’t listen to these songs, especially when I’m alone.

I was game enough to try playing that mental blacklist of songs once, when I was walking quite a distance, at night, all alone. Tears just stream down my face, and after that, my mood would take a nosedive. No one should talk to me at all. No one should try.

Geez. Those were the days.

I’m amaze how I can and will only appreciate the music now, reflecting through the lyrics, removing them, one by one, from that blacklist.

Now, that mental blacklist no longer exist. I always feel like kicking myself for that blacklist and my fear to listen to them, for those songs in the list were great songs.

And yes, you have to forgive me for choosing to forget. It’s some sort of defence mechanism. I’ve learnt. And of course, I’ve learnt that I can do without many, but I have to have music.

Lust, Caution 12 November, 2007

Watched the uncensored version of Lust, Caution.

And yes, it was quite a good movie. Personally, I felt that the sex scenes  love-making scenes were there to portray the guilt, the struggle and pain she was going through inside.

Imagine–while watching one of the intimate scene, as she was screaming, I teared. It was like as if you can feel how she felt. As she was on top of him, looking at the gun…the agony in her eyes.

I couldn’t really remember what she really said. But it left a very deep impression in my heart, in my own words–”As he entered me, he entered my heart too”. Of course, the words in Chinese were much more painful to listen to, more intense, more descriptive.

Imagine, a man who truly loves you. Imagine having to kill him.

Imagine, a man who likes you, but is too afraid to show it.

It’s one good movie, of which I frowned a lot while watching it, and walked out thinking about it. Yes, it did tramatise me for a while. It made me think, a lot.

That’s why I said it’s a good movie.