When my head has to take over

I asked my heart honestly. And it finally admitted that a part of it has fallen for you, somehow, someway. Though it’s not suppose to.

But we’ll never be together, for you’ll never justify my self-worth.

I know I deserve much more. So I’m gonna allow my head to rule my heart, once again.

For I know when I fall this time, no one will be there to catch me.
And this may be the time I get destroyed beyond repair.

You asked, “Did anything silly?”

“I’ll rather hurt than feel nothing at all..”


I know my heart is incoherent. And I’m trying my best to fight it.


The chess game

I was told, “break his heart first, before he breaks yours..”

Indeed, indeed.

I have to make my move now, for I can feel the cracks deepening in my heart.

The winner loses.

I know it’s bad when I do the things I do, just to win.
Not to win you over.

But just to win.

To everyone who wants a piece of me,
think again.

I’m in a very angsty mood.

Of a broken heart, and a broken person

(credits to demony)

I’m pretty much torn.
All the clashes and apologies I owe.

Listening to Rachael Yamagata and Coldplay when I’m alone is fatal.
It wakes up all the emotions I try so hard to bury.

When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
When you’re too in love to let it go
Could it be worse?

— Fix you, Coldplay

You know, for you, I’ll bleed myself dry.

I want out

I’m tired of being confused and having people walk in and out of my life as and when they desire.

I’m being used.
Yes, I am.

And I’m trying to gather every ounce of energy I have in me to walk away from you, and you.

Please tell me my heart can be pieced back, and I will learn to love and trust all over again.

Hearts are resilient little things, I was told. But I’m not sure how resilient mine is.

I know my heart died today.

And I may never find it in me to love again.

But thank you Pearly. Your words meant a lot to me.

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