First week at work.
After so many months of slacking, it’s strange to be back learning and adapting.
Gotta fly to KL next week for a training.

Hopefully I get into the works of things soon.

Postsecret Sunday/ Sex on fire

Ok.
I’m gonna be a good girl.

His SMS-es

“The issue was visible cos no matter how much u tried to push me away i didn’t and was able to see everything”.

“I realized I’m quite stubborn ah. u tried to push me away but i nvr listened. haha”.

Note to self: Jaslin. Stop worrying that the ones you love may eventually leave. Start living. Before you lose them to your fear.

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I need to live. And not let you pass me by.

He said, “I don’t want us to be arguing, getting pissed and all. I want us to enjoy the time we spend together..”

I replied, “I know..and I know I’m neurotic at time. I know I’m really hard to get along with. The closer you get to me, the more I’ll expect of you.”

He smiled and said, “I already know that you are neurotic long ago.”

I can’t push my limits of us anymore. For now I truly realise I’ve been putting him through a lot of torment as well.

I want us to be happy. And I’ll try. I’ll try not to push him away, not to wait and expect him to screw things up.

Somehow, in us, I learn a lot about myself.

I am afraid to love. More afraid to lose.
But I can’t let get the better of me anymore.

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You taught me more about myself. And that scares me, cos it makes me feel vulnerable.

It’s true what you said. I seem to be waiting for you to fuck things up, subconsciously, of cos. I am trying to push you away so that you will leave and I can prove that I am right about you and proudly declare that since you don’t deserve me at my worse, you don’t deserve me at my best.

It’s scary.

Simply put, to the world outside, we are friends.
But we know we’re complicated.

I need to take it easy, learn to trust and learn to get use to someone who reads me that easily.

Adia

This song has been on repeat. Love the introduction. And I would love to do this song one day.
I remember singing this song when I was 11, and that makes me wonder why am I singing such a sad song when I was so young?

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I’m on my way to feeling better.

Tears, the occasional heartache still haunts.
But the feeling is no longer the same.

I’m stubborn like that.

I know, we were wrong from the beginning.
I was just too stubborn.

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Work starts next week.

Scary but exciting.

It’s strange to finally have landed a job in the beauty industry. Cos that means, I get to doll up and it’s part of the job anyway. (I admit I sound too cool here, you should have seen me jumping up and down like an ass when I got the job offer. To think I was shopping at Orchard..)

Nature gives you the face you have at twenty; it is up to you to merit the face you have at fifty.
–Coco Chanel

Opps. I did it again

I love how I do what I did and then wonder why I did it.

I’m in a very strange phase right now.

Anyway, I’m drawing up a savings plan, yada yada.
How very grown-up.
Let’s see, if I do well, I’ll get to buy another Chanel soon!

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