I can’t undo what has been done.
I can’t regret giving my heart and almost all to you.

For we did share the good times. And I really did like you, to an extend where I saw a future in us.

So I’m gonna leave us behind, together with the haunting regrets that overwhelm me sometimes.
I know I can.

I will be better than before.

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Lipstick Jungle

‎”Listen to me. You’re not a loser. You are an extraordinary person. You are funny. You are scary smart, and intense and gorgeous. And larger than life. And you deserve to be loved because of those things. Not in spite of them.”

Starting over is very scary. It’s a huge risk. But it’s also a new beginning.

It’s officially over.
And I do feel oddly liberated.

Perhaps, you have someone else. Perhaps, you are just constantly afraid you can’t live up to my ‘expectations’.

But the answers to those questions, are no longer needed by me.

You taught me a whole lot about myself.
But it’s time to return you to where you belong.

“I love you. But I love me more”
–Sex and the City

Mediocre

We had magic. But I can’t have you give up on us as and when you please anymore.

I took a long time to rationalise– but if I mattered to you, you wouldn’t put me in such a place right now.

And today, I realised I’ve been missing out on too much.
I can’t settle for someone who is not head over heels for me. I can’t settle for someone who feels insercure of my achievements. I can’t settle for someone who constantly needs my assurance and yet is not able to do the same for me. I can’t settle for someone who treats his friends better than me.

Yes, I can’t.

Why should I?

When I’ve got so much to offer, the last thing I should do is settle for mediocre.

I need the breath-taking, mind-blowing experience.

To love myself is to walk away from you.

Starting anew is not easy. But I think you’ve hurt me too much.

Cliche as it sounds, some things you say can never be taken back.

You said it’s the end of us, then make sure you get out of my life.

If I could, I would have cut away all possible ways of you contacting me.

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”
— Marilyn Monroe

And to all of the wonderful people who have been asking after me,
I’ll be alright. It’s painful now, but I’ll sure as hell recover.
Afterall, let’s not waste time talking too much about heartache anymore. I can do better than that.

Focus on the different perspective.
It’s difficult not to think about you all the time.
But I do deserve someone who’s head over heels for me.

It’s painful to let you go, but I’ll look forward to someone else. Someone else who’ll be appreciative of what he has.

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